Healing

April 1997

To feel the pain a heart must feel when it has forgotten how to live; Beating in a soul that has fought so hard, struggled long and knows not how to try. To know the pain that soul must feel when it realizes life goes on. To see the dreams the dreamer dreams of days that have gone by.

I’ve been the heart. I’ve felt the soul. I’ve seen the dreams go by. I know the sorrows felt in living day to day, no thoughts ahead, all thoughts they fall behind.

The love that was lost was true and pure, the lovers truly dreamt, that love was strong and full and deep, a love that never ends.

It was never meant to be, their minds can tell them this and yet their hearts still beat and cry and break. Their sorrow overwhelms.

Those that hear their tale of love, they take a piece of pain; until the heart is light again the tale it will be told. For to heal a broken heart, time and friendship is the only cure.

October 1997

I know that I am not beautiful. I’ve known that for a long time. I know that I’m not ugly. I have no noticeable defect to either my physical being or my persona. I belong somewhere in the masses of the mediocre. I know that and try to accept that, but what is it about the human condition that pushes us to strive for that which we cannot attain. My unattainable is not that unthinkable. It is not so bizarre that I should be shunned in public or ridiculed by thousands. My goal is this: To be beautiful to one person, one special person. To find a person who will look at me and not see mediocrity. To find that one special person who will see wonderful things in me that I have never seen before. However, a goal like this is incomplete unless, in that special person, I see something wonderful. I must be to that person what they are to me. And that, that is the tragedy of love.

April 1998

To All My Friends at a Time of Change

I sat alone in the dark, and thought of times gone past

And wondered how, while in the dark, to make these moments last.

The time we spent, the joy we shared, the love will last forever

For in my heart, my soul and mind, we will always be together.

My thoughts they overwhelm me, they play upon my soul

The things that happen round me, they are out of my control.

You’ve made me who I am today, the person here before you

I take you with me, everyone. In essence, I adore you.

I sit alone, in the dark, and think of future days

And wonder how, while in the dark, the light will clear the haze.

They say that out of endings, new beginnings will arise

I know you’ll be there for me, I can see it in your eyes.

My thoughts they overwhelm me, I don’t know how to say goodbye

I never want our paths to part, together we will cry.

You’ve made me who I am today, I leave now on my own

I take you with me, everyone, I know I’m not alone